My Taurus Tea Collection

Mercury retrograde 24° – 8° Capricorn: Dec 29, 2022 – Jan 18, 2023

Full Moon Lunar Eclipse 16° Taurus: Nov 2022

2nd to the last round of Pluto at 27° Capricorn (pounding my south node and the US Pluto)

Uranus in Taurus square Saturn in Aquarius: ends mid-March 2023

Endo update (sorry I can’t help but talk about this):

Near the end of 2022, I had a four hour surgery conducted by my new gynecologist/specialist at Magee to remove deep infiltrating endometriosis from areas never accessed before. Before the surgery, Dr. Ted Lee kind of wanted me to get a total hysterectomy. I guess he wasn’t too impressed with my MRI results and said ‘keeping your uterus is not going to prevent the growths from coming back.’ But I wanted to keep my uterus. I have been on this journey for too long and didn’t come this far to finally give in and give it up. So he left it alone and cleaned me up.

I really like Dr. Lee, he spends as much time as you need with him, has thorough conversations with you answering your questions and as another doctor put it is ‘the best endo surgeon on the east coast especially when it comes to nerve involvement.’ He was surprised how I was able to even find him in his little office at the bottom corner of the hospital. After the surgery, he talked with my family in the waiting room and expressed how happy he was with the procedure. The uterus wasn’t as bad as he thought and made some room for my remaining ovary to breathe. He told them that I should now find a nice Indian boy, get married and if I wanted have a kid. I thought ‘you just had to unfuse my uterus from my rectum, do you really think I want to marry an Indian guy?’ Since he is Taiwanese, of course he’s going to say these things.

My first gynecologist passed away a couple of weeks ago. I was deeply saddened to learn that the doctor who helped my mother and I for so many years and who was always a shoulder for her to cry on was instantly gone. I no longer have the comfort of knowing that a few days of the month he is working just a five minute walk away. RIP Dr. James Duggan. My family will always be immensely grateful for your kind service to my family and the community. We will turn everything we’ve been through to help others however we can through your example. It feels like the grief just doesn’t end.

I lost the ability to have periods last year because I was put on progestin. I feel better on it and wish I had this option YEARS ago. My whole life has been a journey through the 12th century mired by themes of the dark ages in between. The general flow of living has put me in a state of severe repression and restriction. Where does one go? Especially without much money? If I didn’t have a mother who has empathy and compassion, what would I do? I would be left bleeding at the side of the road the way a couple Americans have talked with me.

In any case, I have had to come to terms with feeling like I’ve become a man, yet again, by not having periods. But that’s the only way I can function right now. I know many women are grateful for this option but I have trouble accepting it probably because I have five planets in Libra (ruler of ovaries and kidneys, Venus). I am deeply attached. In Hindi, you call your mother’s sister, Maasee or Maasi. My sweet one-year old nephew couldn’t say the ‘ee’ sound a couple times so he called me Maasaa, which is what you call your uncle. An indication that I’m on the undesired but right path. That’s okay, I don’t have a problem being the male version for him but somehow the nightmare that I would one day turn into a full-fledged male is coming true. Now when he wants to show me how he goes down the slide at the playground he says ‘Maasee!’ and goes running. My heart just soars.

I am deepening my journey in alternative health to learn what can prevent or slow future growths. Along with the therapeutic massages, craniosacral treatments, acupuncture, tons of supplements and my tea collection (which doesn’t help with pain but can help a bad mood), the bank balance quickly diminishes. And all while this blinding light I keep annoyingly seeing everywhere keeps following me.

Fuck this shit. What is a person supposed to say at the end of the day.

Transit update: Nodes in Cancer Capricorn

Transits:

  • Saturn in Capricorn
  • Jupiter in Sagittarius
  • Uranus in Taurus
  • Neptune in Pisces
  • Pluto in Capricorn

            Outer planet Uranus reenters Taurus in March for good for the next seven years while Chiron reenters Aries in February for eight years. It’s interesting to note that both entities Uranus and Chiron, which represent the nature of soul wounds and traumas, are simultaneously in well-emphasized masculine and feminine signs: Aries is Mars-ruled masculine and Taurus is Venus-ruled feminine. There will be many manifestations of this including more layers of wounding with regards to the male/female dynamic coming to the surface in various facets of life including of course relationships as well as opportunities for deeper spiritual understanding and expression of the Divine Masculine/Feminine.

            The moon’s nodes continue their transit in Cancer/Capricorn and transiting Saturn conjuncts the south node (Capricorn) throughout May, June, July and September. To me what comes up is the balance between emotions and inner security and the structures that exist in our personal lives and the outer world. What are the power dynamics and how can we restructure to meet our personal and collective needs? Capricorn and Cancer are both feminine signs so to me what immediately comes up is the disconnection and reappropriation of the feminine aspect in our existing systems. We’ve already seen these issues and the voicing of them with Pluto transiting Capricorn over the last few years but the extra Capricornian emphases this year unearths a different picture for us to face and the eclipses will jumpstart the process for us. 

  • Solar Eclipse 15°Capricorn – Jan 5
  • Lunar Eclipse 0°Leo – Jan 21
  • Solar Eclipse 10°Cancer – July 2
  • Lunar Eclipse 24°Capricorn – July 16
  • Solar Eclipse 4° Capricorn – Dec 26

As we traverse the routines and realities of our lives, Cancer reminds us to come back to the emotional body and check in with where we feel and don’t feel secure and comfortable. Reflections on where one feels insecure or a lack of nurturance can induce the appropriate adjustments. These reflections will also occur with regards to finances and physical resources as Uranus reenters Taurus, where through sudden events, financial realities may need to be adjusted or renewed. The idea behind it all is to follow your true inspirations so if you do not feel emotionally satisfied and happy with how you create your financial base, then it’s time to start the change-making process. Becoming proactive when the signs start showing themselves is better than delaying changes until a crises of some kind forces you to change. You may have to come up with creative, inventive ways to survive in the case of an impending financial disaster, which is sadly likely especially into the beginning of next year, Jan 2020, when the infamous Pluto/Saturn conjunction occurs. It is wise to start aligning the thinking with saving money or realigning resources this year. 

Thankfully, there are no Venus and Mars retrogrades, whose occurrences in 2018 led to arduous delays, strains and unmanifestations of all kinds. Things will subtly move forward in 2019 with the presence of Jupiter in Sagittarius, inviting us to live with a spirit of freedom and fearlessness. If you are interested in pursuing a career in teaching, increasing your learning about what ignites your interest or traveling more, this would be the year to pursue these activities. The one straining aspect is Jupiter’s square to Neptune with exact placements in January, June and September so if you pursue new directions, make sure to guard yourself against deception. Ask all the questions, do your research and follow your gut before you invest yourself. We will also likely see more religious and political zealotry, dysfunction and refugee crises worsening worldwide.

The big picture is that we are in a death/rebirth process and are reaching a climax. The important thing is to not remain stagnant and to not make huge leaps either. During down moments, staying in motion even at a very slow pace will prove to be beneficial. January 2019 began with Mars at 0°Aries, igniting a pioneering spirit and all Mercury retrogrades this year occur in water signs, again emphasizing the emotional body. There are definitely some intense and dangerous moments this year, but coming back to themes of spirituality, connection and the pursuit of philosophical truths will help immensely. 

Best to you!

Total Lunar Eclipse in Leo

This eclipse again highlights the Leo/Aquarian axis and feels like the height of this energy given the series of Leo/Aquarian Full Moon and Solar eclipses on the following dates:

25 Aquarius – Aug 2016

22 Leo – Feb 2017

15 Aquarius – Aug 2017

Solar eclipse 28 Leo – Aug 2017

11 Leo – Jan 2018

Solar eclipse 27 Aquarius – Feb 2018

4 Aquarius – July 2018

Solar eclipse 18 Leo – Aug 2018

0 Leo – Jan 2019

As you can see, a certain cycle began in Aug 2016, culminates now and goes underground by the end of this year. Creative efforts that began with a lot of Heart in the past are materializing especially with Saturn in Capricorn now, whose time has come to give out rewards (and punishments) in form. The creative (Leo) work doesn’t end, however, and expressing our creativities with healthy ego while embodying a spirit of inclusion and innovation (Aquarius) is crucial. Eclipses bring changes so we are at a point of rebirth or deep shift relative to what we are creating and how things will look no matter where we find ourselves in the journey. Committing to intelligently working with a collective mindset at this juncture will help us profoundly in moments when we feel like choosing between war and peace and we’ll feel this more during the Solar Eclipse at 27 Aquarius on Feb 15.

The Sun, Venus and Mercury are also currently sitting on the South node at 14 Aquarius, heightening our thinking, needs and well-being around cooperation and unity, the more positive embodiment of this energy versus becoming stubborn and inflexible. They are positioned within the eclipse’s spotlight so there is a beautiful potential for the honest and authentic expression of our identities and individualities in a spirit of play, generosity and unity. Mars’ Sagittarian influence until mid-March can encourage this expression with a sense of adventure where we discover new philosophies and realities and remember to be lighthearted.