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My Taurus Tea Collection

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Mercury retrograde 24° – 8° Capricorn: Dec 29, 2022 – Jan 18, 2023

Full Moon Lunar Eclipse 16° Taurus: Nov 2022

2nd to the last round of Pluto at 27° Capricorn (pounding my south node and the US Pluto)

Uranus in Taurus square Saturn in Aquarius: ends mid-March 2023

Endo update (sorry I can’t help but talk about this):

Near the end of 2022, I had a four hour surgery conducted by an endometriosis specialist at Magee hospital to remove deep infiltrating endometriosis from areas never accessed before in my pelvis and sacrum. Before the surgery, Dr. Ted Lee kind of wanted me to get a total hysterectomy. I guess he wasn’t too impressed with my MRI results and said ‘keeping your uterus is not going to prevent the growths/adenomyosis from coming back.’ But I wanted to keep my uterus. I have been on this journey for too long and didn’t come this far to finally give in and give it up. So he left it alone and cleaned the rest of me up.

I like Dr. Lee, he spends time with you, thoroughly answers your questions and as another doctor put it is ‘the best endo surgeon on the east coast especially when it comes to nerve involvement.’ He was surprised how I was able to even find him in his little office at the bottom corner of the hospital. After the surgery, he talked with my family in the waiting room and expressed how happy he was with the procedure. The uterus wasn’t as bad as he thought and made some room for my remaining ovary to breathe. He told them that I should now find a nice Indian boy, get married and if I wanted have a kid. I thought ‘you just had to unfuse my uterus from my rectum, do you really think I want to marry an Indian guy?’ Since he is Taiwanese, of course he’s going to say these things.

My gynecologist passed away a couple of weeks ago. I was deeply saddened to learn that the doctor who helped my mother and I for so many years and was a shoulder for her to cry on was instantly gone. I no longer have the comfort of knowing that a few days of the month he is working just a five minute walk away. RIP Dr. James Duggan. My family will always be immensely grateful for your kind service to my family and the community. We will turn everything we’ve been through to help others however we can through your example. It feels like the grief just doesn’t end.

I lost the ability to have periods last year because I was put on progestin. I feel better on it and wish I had this option YEARS ago. My whole life has been a journey through the 12th century mired by themes of the dark ages in between. The general flow of living has put me in a state of severe repression and restriction. Where does one go? Especially without much money? If I didn’t have parents who have empathy and compassion, what would I do? I would be left bleeding at the side of the road the way a couple Americans have talked with me.

In any case, I have had to come to terms with feeling like I’ve become a man, yet again, by not having periods. But that’s the only way I can function right now. I know many women are grateful for this option but I have trouble accepting it probably because I have five planets in Libra (ruler of ovaries and kidneys, Venus). In Hindi, you call your mother’s sister, Maasee or Maasi. My sweet one-year old nephew couldn’t say the ‘ee’ sound a couple times so he called me Maasaa, which is what you call your uncle (in Marwari). An indication that I’m on the undesired but right path. That’s okay, I don’t have a problem being the male version for him but somehow the nightmare that I would one day turn into a full-fledged male is coming true. Now when he wants to show me how he goes down the slide at the playground he says ‘Maasee!’ and goes running. My heart just soars.

I am deepening my journey in alternative health to learn what can prevent or slow future growths because there is no cure. Along with the therapeutic massages, craniosacral treatments, acupuncture, tons of supplements and my tea collection (which doesn’t help with pain but can help a bad mood), the bank balance quickly diminishes. All while this blinding light I annoyingly see everywhere keeps following me.

Fuck this shit. What is a person supposed to say at the end of the day.

Reflections on Neptune and Saturn Retrogrades: I have had enough

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Neptune retrograde 25° – 22° Pisces: June 28 – Dec 3, 2022

Saturn Retrograde 25° – 18° Aquarius: June 4 – Oct 23, 2022

Uranus in Taurus: feels like forever

When I was seven, eight or nine, I can’t remember which trip it was, my family and I, with my uncle, aunt, cousin and grandma traveled to two holy places in India, where the Goddess is deeply worshipped. The trips were amazing. I have never felt such abundance. We completed our prayers, felt many memorable scenes and then made the long drive back home.

As it goes with being a young kid, you end up having a little too much fun. On the way back, my cousin, sister and I decided to yell at and scare people out the car window as we drove past them. Not sure exactly what prompted this but the feeling of freedom overtook us as our driver drove through the gorgeous sunlight that day. All the kids were in one van with Nani and the rest of the adults were in the other van.

Despite Nani’s protests, I remember yelling at one newlywed couple stuck at the side of the road trying to fix their scooter to watch out for that snake (saap!) behind them. A few people lost control of their bikes. But we complimented one girl on her beautiful buffaloes in the distance. In the light, their almost black coats shining in the sun looked other-wordly.

Needless to say, we ended up having not one but two flat tires on the way home. After the first flat, the parents asked us to stop in a nice manner for fear of karmic retribution. The second flat tire is what truly made us stop because that was a difficult one to fix and we kids believed our work was truly done. As everyone lazily lounged with their fantas waiting for the tire to be fixed, I couldn’t help but take in the breathtaking view of a girl across the street tending to her sea of goats in a large field under a serene afternoon into the sunset. That scene has been in the back of my mind forever.

This memory is so vivid right now. Neptune’s Pisces retrograde must be taking me back to a special spiritual moment as I also view how I might have terrorized others (Aquarius) as a seven year old. Recently, I found a deep pain in my lower left side that has not gone away even after my procedure a few months ago. It has been brutal. I haven’t been able to sit in a chair. Most of my work is done on the sofa with my leg up, random other places around the house (I assure you I’m working) or the Panera cushion I can tolerate at times.

Something in me a few months ago told me to see an endometriosis specialist, a type of person I possibly saw in a google search and/or mentioned in the comments of an endometriosis support group on Facebook I look to at times for connection. Thankfully I had already made the appointment before this moment and waited five and half months to see a specialist at Magee, who confirmed my suspicions. It is likely I have endometrial lesions in deeper areas of my pelvis. I will need a procedure that removes them via excision instead of ablation. We will confirm with a different type of pelvic MRI where my vajayjay will be injected with gel (God help me).

I am relieved but devastated. I am always devastated. Everything comes back to me – the missed opportunities, fun and moments I could have had without this wretched disorder. And the simultaneous weighing against what others don’t have and how lucky I am with ‘all the support I could possibly need in a developing nation.’ It’s hard to feel grateful.

There are many women who don’t have their own bathrooms in this world and/or menstrual products. How many times growing up did I waste so much water sitting in the shower hoping the hot temperature would help soothe my pain? How many times have I gone over not being able to work at a conventional place of work where I could have had some more experience and money only to be treated like a second class citizen because I needed a five minute break? I still question whether I belong there.

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How many times have I evaluated when and when not I will have the ability to physically do something, anything, only to have my evaluations proven wrong. And dealing with the endless insensitive comments of others, whether they mean it or not, which they often don’t. At the end of the day, as I sit in my comfortable bed with a cup of tea, the thing that has kept me going is gratitude for my bathroom.

What I would do for the eternal joy of being a seven year old again under a brilliant sun riding in that car free of pain, only God knows. What is surprising to me is how I’m unfortunately thinking about the insensitive and turd-like mannerisms of some white people at this moment too. Why is this beautiful memory tarnished with this? Why am I writing about it in the same post? I’m having trouble synthesizing what is real from what is unreal and find myself saying over and again in my mind throughout the day: UNREAL.

I just had a woman in her late forties whitesplain to me about a creative project. In such a crass way. And I hired her! Forget about professionalism, it seems there is a level of ‘informality’ that can be accessed which I can’t imagine accessed with brown people. And I have dealt with a lot of brown people. And what is it that makes an old white, crusty mediator who has had a career and wants you to be a part of his dying career literally say: “your family must be so frustrated with you” as he manipulates you to join his ‘firm’ during covid. “I don’t want to be a part of your stupid ‘firm!”

As if the other American bullshit isn’t enough to deal with, I remember years ago, this wretched white guy whose kid I tutored asked me to now tutor his niece. After sending them my contract, which requires payment upfront, the parent did not bring payment to the first session. I then calmly explained in a sentence why I cannot tutor (and his son forgot to bring payment more than once before) and quietly walk away. I was then barraged with voicemails and emails with him calling me a c*** saying I need psychological help. And the contact (white woman who owns an educational company!) who referred this turd to me, after he complains to the contact, emails me and says ‘I’m not surprised by his complaints.’ She never met me in person and I hardly ever spoke with her.

I’ve seen my mother deal with many Indian people in the course of her business. It sucks seeing people “bargain” with your mother for twenty dollars when they own half a million to million dollar homes. But hey, it doesn’t suck as bad as a thieving ‘mediator’ and being called the c word. This is hate. This is slavery.

It seems to me that whatever that level of informality or pattern is, it exists. I feel we need to know within ourselves the type of communication and interaction appropriate for each one of us, asserting it with boundaries (Taurus) and endings while watching for the red flags if we want to improve our brown lives. We must know our limits (Saturn).

You know, some of us don’t walk around calculating how we’re going to behave and what we’re going to say in this world. I don’t think as I interact with the world everyday ‘okay I’m interacting as a woman so this is what I will or will not say.’ I just think and behave naturally. When I’m triggered, a mix of responses come up. Should we constantly be triggered under constant duress and stress where we have to be mindful of how we respond to this? The world’s behavior, as one psychology professor put it, ‘has become so very weird.’

Unreal..

  • The update (Aug 2022) is I have DIE (deep infiltrating endometriosis) which happens with stage IV endo and adenomyosis, all of which has never been addressed since I was a teenager. I’m so glad to have confirmed that I own death. And other great stuff like hydrosalpinx aka pixy stix. I wish the system worked in a way so I could have had the excision laparascopy option years ago, which is fortunately minimally invasive.

Venus Rx in Capricorn and the Taurus/Scorpio eclipse cycle – What will it bring?

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Venus Retrograde – 25° – 11° Capricorn, Dec 19 – Jan 29, 2022
Lunar Eclipse 27° Taurus – November 19, 2021, Solar Eclipse 10° Taurus – April 30, 2022

Lunar Eclipse 25° Scorpio – May 16, 2022
Solar Eclipse 2° Scorpio – Oct 25, 2022, Lunar Eclipse 16° Taurus – Nov 8, 2022

Recently, my dad and I went over to a close family friend’s house for Thanksgiving. Our friends have a daughter who is basically like my cousin. We have loved cuddling all our lives and talking about Netflix. There was just one other family invited whom I didn’t know very well – a very nice auntie who had to leave early cause she had to work, uncle and son. But it turned out that even with very few people, it was a very entertaining evening.

We started off the evening with pleasant conversation, delicious snacks and champagne. The three ‘kids’ played games beginning with cards while the parents sang Hindi karaoke songs, loud and clear. We played Rumi and Texas hold ‘em poker. First off, I can’t stand it when people bully you by betting abnormously high in the beginning (and I was forewarned by the uncle who pleasantly boasted about his son’s constant winning streak in life. He honestly was very nice to talk to, exuding warmth, smiliness and gratitude). Well guess what, I’m just gonna end up taking my money back, its equivalent from you and generally end up with more. And then everyone has to quit the game because it’s time to eat. Muaaahhahhhahhahhha.

We moved on to Scattergories for a short period of time because we couldn’t use our brains due to food coma. How are you supposed to come up with food items starting with ‘W’ or ‘D’? Very difficult. We then of course moved on to Monopoly. I have not played this game in so long and enjoyed being the laptop who got to traverse the board numerous times due to rolling doubles a lot and acquiring properties, even ones I didn’t want but ended up buying anyway cause I landed on them repeatedly. I enjoyed collecting small amounts of rent, but not as much as my cousin collected due to her numerous properties, and from guess who, from the beloved son who only had two of them AND it turns out, the uncle, who I realized was also playing.

I thought he was singing with the others but suddenly how many spaces we all had moved in relation to the dice was being thoroughly checked by him. His face turned very serious when his son handed $120 over to me, and respectfully so, because I owned the Electric Company and the other utility. They repeatedly landed on Chance and contributed to Free Parking. I was also laughed at by guess who because I needed change and suggested exchanging a 50 in the parking for some change from the bank. Somehow we aren’t allowed to do that. He kept laughing and looking at me and I quietly questioned in my head yet again how I end up in these situations. I just smiled at the other player, sharing in the understanding of this totally absurd moment.

Needless to say, I should have expected an Indian uncle whose family is in the top 1% highest income category in the United States to be incredibly and visibly upset that his son had little money and not enough properties. If it was ten years ago, I would have been really irked by this team offering to buy one of my properties for $200 when I just bought it for $180. Really how much work must you be doing in life and how hungry could you possibly think I am that I would want just a $20 ‘profit’ from this exchange. Sometimes those with more just don’t understand the correct exchanges. I counteroffered by saying he could buy it from me for a $1000 and for the other player it would be $600. The suggestion was also enthusiastically made to do a trade with the other player and collect rents, but it reeked of money laundering and I went into shock.

After having our necks breathed down on and only a couple glasses of alcohol because you’re around family, it was time for the game to end and certain people to leave. What was once a warm, smiley uncle turned into a low energy and concerned one but who left amicably and who we nevertheless had compassion for. Even being annoyed, I was unable to control my inner laughter, sending emojis and texts to my cousin afterwards. We wanted to send him sore loser gifs like ‘Don’t be Upsetti, Eat Some Spaghetti’ and that handsome black guy doing a crying face.

This is how the Universe works. It brings scenes into the grand play of your life of what’s about to unfold and what will come up. A lot of people will be excited.

~ Happy Holidays ~

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Uranus in Taurus Reflections

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Over the last few months, as much as I have tried to pull myself out of a bottomless pit of despair and woundedness, I regrettably have not been able to get out of it. My body suffered through one too many extra pastries, lack of exercise, the usual hormonal imbalances and an idly stagnant mental health scene.

Of course you can always look to the intense transits in the sky and one’s evolutionary karma to understand why there is a ton of gunk sitting in front of you, there from whatever reason, through your fault or another’s. Because I am not yet an enlightened monk, I unfortunately cannot dissolve it with the laser focus of my inner light so I need the help of various methods to help me through and astrology is at the end of the day, a big one of those methods.

The pain I’ve been feeling has been so literal, so in the body. The current Uranus in Taurus transit is one of the main culprits with it transiting my Moon sign, and Taurus, in addition to Aries, is the body. Taurus is the physical and emotional needs of a person from which it relates with itself and others and which contribute to survival. It teaches self-sufficiency, foundation-building and learns what its’ needs are. The evolutionary journey starts in Aries, when the Soul is propelled from the womb and experiences the initial spark of life and instinct but it then forms attachments with its surroundings through Taurus, coming to some understanding of what is a part of our survival and values.

Uranus forces us to rebel and become our Authentic self. Its’ electrification initiates our liberation in unexpected ways, being that it is also the planet of shocks. Its’ continued transit through Taurus means we have been jumpstarted into a journey of uncovering what we need to physically and emotionally survive and be our True Selves. And if we aren’t aware of what our needs are or even the concept of having needs then we are up for some surprises.

A divorce, betrayal, loss of income or injury are just a few of the many examples of situations that would force us into learning about why what was didn’t survive and what it is that we will need moving forward to build solid foundations that will last longer. The Taurus bull sure loves sweets so instead of reaching for that pastry, we can focus on what is internally missing in the first place even if it’s painful, go for a brisk walk and make a smoothie instead.

Simultaneously occurring Chiron in Aries makes the stress on the body more difficult, especially the head area, with stress headaches and migraines, and increased inflammation in the body. Chiron is a comet similar to Uranus in that it shows us the nature of our wounds. The theme of these wounds is ever present throughout our lives but Chiron is known as the ‘wounded healer,’ so it becomes a great healer after transforming from them.

Aries instinct is masculine in nature, but it exists in everybody regardless of sex or gender, and where we have not been able to exercise our primal self produces pain. Pluto has drudged up a lot around our world systems through its transit in Capricorn so intense rage is sure to come up especially given the historical existence of patriarchy over thousands of years with many human beings repressed in so many ways. The collective effects of Chiron in Aries are violence, impulsive behavior and tremendous fear. Repressed rage and anxiety results from separation anxiety (initially from the womb), being cutoff from the primal psyche and unactualized will.

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As we uncover ways in which our Taurean survival needs are traumatized, the effect on the body and mental health can take a toll. Are we not being forced into taking care of our physical vessels and reevaluating how we manifest our willpower? Do we still have a willpower? I myself have repeatedly imagined my natural brown-skinned self and how she would have felt surviving in nature, killing animals and collecting nuts for food, while adorning herself with natural paint colors taken from flowers and leaves. There is such a feeling of peace and sensual satisfaction from it. Alas, the only option I have is going into a pharmacy with rows of packaging and picking out a ‘beauty’ option to hopefully feel vibrant.

In any case, the uncovering of our independence and earthly selves is paramount, especially if we have to physically survive and isn’t survival the primary concern in our world after all? These transits will continue for another five years. Instead of eternally saddened about the upsets in life or falling into despair, maybe I should realize that indeed there is a ‘basic’ part of my evolutionary journey missing and for much of humankind and it’s up to me to bring it into my existence to fulfill the journey.

Dancing towards Uranus: Lessons in Freedom and Harmony

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A Uranus and Venus conjunction happens once almost every year. What a conjunction manifests depends on the nature of the sign the planets conjunct in, or the degree of the zodiac they both ‘collide’ at. On April 22, 2021, they both collided at 10° Taurus. Traditionally ruled by Venus, Taurus energy is determined, devoted and materially creative and resourceful, often the sign of fashion, design, gardening and singing given that it rules the throat chakra and neck. Its’ Venus rulership merges it with Libra territory, giving it artistic ability, such as in dance, and skill in creating harmony, as art is an expression of harmony, symmetry and agreement.

Uranus still has another five years to complete its transit through Taurus. Uranus is an outer planet that guides part of your spiritual journey in evolutionary journey. Its’ mandate is to liberate yourself from the existing structures in your life and to innovate with a spirit of rebellion as you find freedom and new ways of expression. But Uranus’ lightening, electric energy often fulfills its mandate erratically, forcing radical and instantaneous changes and tipping you off your balance and routine.

I felt lots of creativity wanting to express itself recently but was having trouble getting it to flow. It felt as if something new and exciting was coming but hadn’t come yet and the friction kept brewing underneath the surface.

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Classical dance is my Libran expression, specifically Indian classical dance, Bharatanatyam. Libra is also cooperation and collaboration and there’s nothing more I love than collaborating with others, artists and non-artists, in creating new works and ideas. This is my life’s breath, and recently I had a chance to get back to my classical Indian dance roots as a couple dance colleagues and I were commissioned to do a video performance for an upcoming virtual convention this summer.

At first my colleagues and I thought we had a couple months to work on our performance but a couple weeks before the Uranus-Venus conjunction, a VERY early deadline was unexpectedly thrust onto us and we found ourselves working day and night planning, choreographing, rehearsing and editing video. Having to coordinate the video recording of our performance during a continuing pandemic while a couple of us were still waiting to get our second vaccination shots was an additional challenge. There was venting and complaining along the way as we needed to complete everything with electric speed. I realized that the sudden nature of this whole event was Uranus at play.

Interestingly, after joyously dancing for two whole days outside amidst alternating shades of light and dark in the sky turned out be an otherworldly experience and we found ourselves feeling beautifully fulfilled afterwards. Professional and amateur dancers got a chance to work their artistic muscles and create together after a long time. Longstanding ideas were exercised and inventions for the future were stirring. Friendship felt stronger and initial planning around creating with different resources such as film and media occurred. Most importantly, we felt free.

Uranus wants you to do something unique and experience liberation. It forces you into new experiences, painful and joyous, to experience the different. I had never worked with a drone before and was delighted holding dance poses for a flying, buzzing camera above my head even though I couldn’t feel my legs and arms afterwards! Amidst the craziness of these unforeseen circumstances, I was exploring a newfound self. The lesson of Uranus is to attain your freedom with even some fun. And with like-minded people.

Instead of focusing on the stress of something unexpected, we can focus on how the experience might lead us to a unique self. Can we use it to manifest a different part of our selves and even dissolve an outmoded way of functioning? Can we evolve spiritually from it and step into our authenticity? If you can, then you’ve fulfilled the teaching of Uranus and that’s an accomplishment worth (Taurus) creating for.

Happy Dancing!

Transit update for the US

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Unfortunately to many astrologers, the current upheavals are not surprising and have been predicted for some time. The Pluto Saturn conjunction in Capricorn in Jan 2020 along with the shift of Uranus solidly into Taurus this last year was portended to bring intense crises in order to facilitate the changes and evolution required by the larger forces of our Universe.

Taurus rules resources, how we handle money, hard work, labor and Uranus is the planet of shocks, rebellion and individuation from the status quo. Thus unexpected events and situations will occur in Taurus areas for the remaining six years of its transit in order for revolution to be realized. Uranus first entered Taurus in May 2018 for six months, retrograded back into Aries, then reentered Taurus in March of 2019. Taurus rules the throat chakra including the neck, thyroid, vocal tract and even the ears so there could be issues in these areas if you are prone. You can wear green, particularly a green gemstone, or copper to stabilize these areas.

For the US, the Uranus transit will affect the health sector and institutions that house people in isolation such as prisons, hospitals, religious and spiritual centers, etc. We can see for instance, how there is a dire shortage of face masks for health care workers who need to protect themselves from covid-19 as well as ventilators for patients and other supplies needed, prompting needed invention and accelerated production by small and large companies around the US. There are also crazy instances of people hoarding supplies and taking advantage of the situation. On the positive side, new ideas will spring up around how to overcome these challenges, specifically by exploring technology. The ultimate spiritual lesson from an evolutionary astrology perspective is to shatter thought forms and delusions that no longer serve us, become detached and objective and create interdependently while respecting each other’s needs and talents.

The 2019 solar and lunar eclipses hit the US Sun, Jupiter and Mercury Retrograde, portending low well-being for some time. The Pluto-Saturn conjunction was a climax point to the pressure building up over the last few years and will continue to unleash after effects. Plutonian topics include those of atomic measure or lacking internal structure such as viruses, bacteria, power dynamics, shared resources, waste and metamorphic processes,. Saturn rules structure, that which is of time and space and the lens through which we each individually understand our world. An incredibly intense transformational energy colliding with solid, systemic structures in various aspects and levels of life can have a wide and unpredictable impact.

It’s interesting that the Full Moon on March 9, 2020 was just three degrees from the US Neptune, highlighting the US Neptune/Mars square. Robert Gover, a renowned journalist and astrologer who researched the US economy over a few centuries, found that historically the triggering of this square aspect has been associated with stock market crashes or panics. Transiting Neptune has been closely approaching this square providing a subtle trigger and will remain in close aspect until February 2022. Despite momentary improvements, there will be dips along the way. Saturn will move into Aquarius, the sign most compatible with Uranus, for the next three years, providing more than ample opportunities brewing underneath the surface to create new, innovative structures that deal positively with finances and that lend themselves to humanitarianism in our world.

The best advice is to make the desired changes in your life proactively, as your intuition tells you to do so and as the opportunity presents itself. Don’t delay your inspiration to change or follow a new path and save some money for a potential crisis. The overall lesson is to create and use resource and talent in innovative, sustainable ways. Modern technology and improvements particularly being developed by the younger generations will be a saving grace and a guiding light in our world. Let’s follow their example. Peace.

Transit update: Mercury Retrograde in Scorpio

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One of my conference speakers @lisa.m.perez was asking about the impact of Mercury Retrograde this month (Nov 2019) and I have to say unlike maybe most people out there, this particular transit is giving me a sense of reprieve rather than fright and fear. It might be because I have Mercury retrograde natally in my chart and because I have a shit ton of planets in my 8th house, the house of Scorpio, so I’m used to the scary stuff and there’s not much that surprises me anymore. What I do feel the important element in this transit is that it will require us to above all else get real and honest. Maybe that will be the solution to dealing with the scary, intense energies and to cutting through the bullshit we are pervaded with in our lives.

Pluto is the ruler of Scorpio, an outer spiritual planet whose energy is atomic and obsessive, and governs good v. evil, the dark side, destruction, violence and of the like. In evolutionary astrology, Pluto is also the Soul that houses our unconscious desires that want to manifest in this life, the path of evolution that we may not be always conscious of but which nevertheless dictates our choices and manifests through Mars, the ego-drive and conscious desires. As Mars transits the later degrees of Libra during the entire Mercury retrograde, we are essentially being directed to take an honest look at how we are or are not manifesting harmony and balance in our lives and this may involve getting real about what our limits are or where we need to take more risks in life.

We have relationships with everything, from the people in our world to the paperwork sitting at our desks. Where do we feel isolated, disconnected, suppressed or over-involved? Where are we tolerating too much bullshit? Are we scared, even petrified, to change? With Mercury’s higher octave Uranus transiting Taurus for the next six years, we need to take a hard look at our finances and the resources we use in our lives. Money, debt and shared resources in partnership is a Scorpio topic so maybe it’s time to take advantage of this transit and reevaluate how these are constructed in your life.

Begin to at least think about a couple adjustments because it’s better to be proactive when the cosmic energies are supportive of such reevaluation and one’s intuition may be indicating so instead of being forced to do it later after a crisis occurs. Uranus is after all the planet of sudden surprises, the lightening bolt that shatters everything so that you become the real you, separate from the status quo. But its’ electric energy also provides those flashes of insight and genius that propel the necessary changes into action.

And if we aren’t getting what we truly need, even after we ask or strive for it, then it’s time to negotiate (Libra). This is how you strike some level of balance and achieve momentary levels of harmony. And let’s become clear about what our needs are, from the physical to the emotional and psychological. Take time to understand what those are because clarity is priceless. If we can’t be clear with ourselves then we can’t be clear with others. From a woman’s point of view, I can’t stress this enough.

Well it seems like I got serious by the end of this post. There is something definitely eerie to this retrograde. But it may be something eerily good if we are aware, probing and passionate, all Scorpio qualities that can easily be harnessed at this time.

Love and Peace ~ Anjali

Transit update: Nodes in Cancer Capricorn

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Transits:

  • Saturn in Capricorn
  • Jupiter in Sagittarius
  • Uranus in Taurus
  • Neptune in Pisces
  • Pluto in Capricorn

            Outer planet Uranus reenters Taurus in March for good for the next seven years while Chiron reenters Aries in February for eight years. It’s interesting to note that both entities Uranus and Chiron, which represent the nature of soul wounds and traumas, are simultaneously in well-emphasized masculine and feminine signs: Aries is Mars-ruled masculine and Taurus is Venus-ruled feminine. There will be many manifestations of this including more layers of wounding with regards to the male/female dynamic coming to the surface in various facets of life including of course relationships as well as opportunities for deeper spiritual understanding and expression of the Divine Masculine/Feminine.

            The moon’s nodes continue their transit in Cancer/Capricorn and transiting Saturn conjuncts the south node (Capricorn) throughout May, June, July and September. To me what comes up is the balance between emotions and inner security and the structures that exist in our personal lives and the outer world. What are the power dynamics and how can we restructure to meet our personal and collective needs? Capricorn and Cancer are both feminine signs so to me what immediately comes up is the disconnection and reappropriation of the feminine aspect in our existing systems. We’ve already seen these issues and the voicing of them with Pluto transiting Capricorn over the last few years but the extra Capricornian emphases this year unearths a different picture for us to face and the eclipses will jumpstart the process for us. 

  • Solar Eclipse 15°Capricorn – Jan 5
  • Lunar Eclipse 0°Leo – Jan 21
  • Solar Eclipse 10°Cancer – July 2
  • Lunar Eclipse 24°Capricorn – July 16
  • Solar Eclipse 4° Capricorn – Dec 26

As we traverse the routines and realities of our lives, Cancer reminds us to come back to the emotional body and check in with where we feel and don’t feel secure and comfortable. Reflections on where one feels insecure or a lack of nurturance can induce the appropriate adjustments. These reflections will also occur with regards to finances and physical resources as Uranus reenters Taurus, where through sudden events, financial realities may need to be adjusted or renewed. The idea behind it all is to follow your true inspirations so if you do not feel emotionally satisfied and happy with how you create your financial base, then it’s time to start the change-making process. Becoming proactive when the signs start showing themselves is better than delaying changes until a crises of some kind forces you to change. You may have to come up with creative, inventive ways to survive in the case of an impending financial disaster, which is sadly likely especially into the beginning of next year, Jan 2020, when the infamous Pluto/Saturn conjunction occurs. It is wise to start aligning the thinking with saving money or realigning resources this year. 

Thankfully, there are no Venus and Mars retrogrades, whose occurrences in 2018 led to arduous delays, strains and unmanifestations of all kinds. Things will subtly move forward in 2019 with the presence of Jupiter in Sagittarius, inviting us to live with a spirit of freedom and fearlessness. If you are interested in pursuing a career in teaching, increasing your learning about what ignites your interest or traveling more, this would be the year to pursue these activities. The one straining aspect is Jupiter’s square to Neptune with exact placements in January, June and September so if you pursue new directions, make sure to guard yourself against deception. Ask all the questions, do your research and follow your gut before you invest yourself. We will also likely see more religious and political zealotry, dysfunction and refugee crises worsening worldwide.

The big picture is that we are in a death/rebirth process and are reaching a climax. The important thing is to not remain stagnant and to not make huge leaps either. During down moments, staying in motion even at a very slow pace will prove to be beneficial. January 2019 began with Mars at 0°Aries, igniting a pioneering spirit and all Mercury retrogrades this year occur in water signs, again emphasizing the emotional body. There are definitely some intense and dangerous moments this year, but coming back to themes of spirituality, connection and the pursuit of philosophical truths will help immensely. 

Best to you!

Transit update: Venus Retrograde in Scorpio/Libra

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Venus, the planet of reconciliation and harmonization, began its retrograde motion on Oct 5 at 10°Scorpio and will go direct on Nov 16 at 25°Libra. This is not an easy transit as it asks us to enter spaces that haven’t been grasped yet and to face vague fears as they come up. As we go through this process, emotions and experiences start to congeal into some coherency and understanding, and we are then pulled again to go deeper and integrate along the way. This transit is about exploring unknown spaces and there is great potential to expand the psyche combined with Jupiter’s continued transit in Scorpio.

Scorpio is a sign that wants to get to the heart of the matter, and has very low tolerance for confusion and bullshit. Venus as balancer will slowly help synthesize the reality coming to the surface while Scorpio’s presence won’t let it fall into its tendency of superficializing the reality away and keeping things ‘peaceful’ and ‘nice.’ Venus as natural ruler of Libra also brings relationships and intimacy into focus so issues around control and manipulation can surface internally and/or externally. Where is Venus Retrograding in your chart? This is the area that becomes activated and because this transit works in 8-year cycles, the last time it occurred was in Oct 2010. Are certain matters coming up for you now that were relevant at that time? Mercury’s current transit through Scorpio will also naturally align our thinking around these topics.

As we surrender to the depths, Jupiter’s influence will help us develop new philosophies as well as a view of the bigger picture behind the events in our lives. There is a greater potential to also merge and unify the separated parts within the psyche. Unification (Libra) is the theme underlying all this, also accented by the new moon in Libra on Oct 8. The Full Moon in Taurus on Oct 24 may provide some inspiration as to how we can ground this energy and actually apply it in our lives. Understanding Truth involves realizing what we need to actually become honest about and the journey is by no means an easy process. Scorpio is a fixed water sign so it’s best to just flow with the energy and make necessary adjustments along the way.